Just wanted to do a quick update. It's now been 3 weeks since surgery. On (May 9th) I met with the breast surgeon for the final surgical pathology report. The results showed 4 new cancer cells growing and He said he took everything out and that I did the right thing. My decision to have a bilateral mastectomy had been a good choice for me and saved me. I am happy enough with everything. That day the weather was Absolutely beautiful after getting my results we stepped out and enjoyed the day. I told Titus Lets climb to the top of Mont royal and we did. Go me! haha it was great to get out and exercise. I'm building my strength back up. Oh it feels so good to be getting back to normal day-to-day activities and doing things for myself without any help.
I will be completely honest Exactly 2 weeks after the surgery thats when everything started to process for me. I just broke down and cried for the first time...hysterically. I took a deep breath and let out tears of relief, grief, and joy. I was relieved to have my major surgeries completed, grieving for the loss of my own breasts, and joyous because of the new cancer-free ones I will get in the future. So many emotions all at once. Yes I miss having breasts but They are just breasts and quite honestly they were determined to kill me so off they went. What's important is this doesn't change who I am. I still have my personality which is good.
At the end of the day, I’ve happily come to terms with the fact that I still have a ways to go in this journey. The entire point of this whole thing was to prevent cancer and not die.
The next step for me is radiation but before that I will need my full range of motion back. The goal is to get my arm over my head. Hopefully we can get started soon. I’m really looking forward to all this stuff being over. Once I am done with radiation, I will be done with treatment and take a break. I'm getting a delayed reconstruction and that will be the final step and finally I would love to celebrate by going on a trip of some sort which I totally deserve ; )
I am thankful for the doctors who provide me with medications and personal guidance. I am grateful for my loving fiancé Titus, my 2 children (now ages 11 and 9) My beloved mother, family, friends, doctors, and my readers who have supported me through my journey. I’m glad you are joining me...
I will be completely honest Exactly 2 weeks after the surgery thats when everything started to process for me. I just broke down and cried for the first time...hysterically. I took a deep breath and let out tears of relief, grief, and joy. I was relieved to have my major surgeries completed, grieving for the loss of my own breasts, and joyous because of the new cancer-free ones I will get in the future. So many emotions all at once. Yes I miss having breasts but They are just breasts and quite honestly they were determined to kill me so off they went. What's important is this doesn't change who I am. I still have my personality which is good.
At the end of the day, I’ve happily come to terms with the fact that I still have a ways to go in this journey. The entire point of this whole thing was to prevent cancer and not die.
The next step for me is radiation but before that I will need my full range of motion back. The goal is to get my arm over my head. Hopefully we can get started soon. I’m really looking forward to all this stuff being over. Once I am done with radiation, I will be done with treatment and take a break. I'm getting a delayed reconstruction and that will be the final step and finally I would love to celebrate by going on a trip of some sort which I totally deserve ; )
I am thankful for the doctors who provide me with medications and personal guidance. I am grateful for my loving fiancé Titus, my 2 children (now ages 11 and 9) My beloved mother, family, friends, doctors, and my readers who have supported me through my journey. I’m glad you are joining me...
I do not have ONE SINGLE REGRET at this point! I’m so happy with my decision. Because at the end of the day, it’s about our lives. Our future. Our families and our friends. It’s about surviving. Plain and simple!