Well hello there readers.The end of October marks the end of breast cancer awareness month. With that said here is my last post of my journey. Also here's a friendly reminder ladies Check them boobies!
A lot has happened since my last post 3 months ago. After a marathon of breast cancer diagnosis and treatments that last over a year, I couldn't wait to get back to a normal life again. But the day of my last treatment didn't mark the end of my journey with breast cancer. Instead, I embarked on another leg of the trip. This one is all about adjusting to life as a breast cancer survivor and living with the changes it has left me both physically and mentally . Now that my body image is changed, I am still trying to get used to it. I have gained some acceptance and the strength to move forward with pride. There are days where I am angry at what cancer took away from me and wanting to feel like a woman. Sometimes when I go out with out my breast form I get some very curious looks but I decided I don't care anymore. I have no regrets at all.
It was a very challenging year with So much pain and heartache. Sadly On August 18, 2013 I got the terrible news that my wonderful father passed away through a tragic accident. As I reflect upon this I can say that I am very grateful to have had a father in my life. When I think of Dad, many special moments come to mind and my heart breaks knowing there will be no more. He was hardworking, strong, proud and cared a lot for his family. We are very proud of everything he accomplished and what he taught us. I wish I could feel his big bear hugs. I love you Dad, we miss you every day and will never forget you R.I.P Daddy ️
I believe we must get the most out of life and live every moment. I have my whole life ahead of me, I’m really going to live. I hold on to those near and dear to me closer. Telling them I love and appreciate them. For those who've made me feel down, I've approached them and forgave them but now I gotta learn how to forgive myself. The gift of life is fragile and a few may realize just how precious it can be, each day I wake up, I'm very grateful for the breath that is taken in. Looking and really seeing the people I cherish around me brings joy to my heart and fills my soul. For this and everything else I'm truly grateful and blessed. I create moments that count with my children. I try to actively surround myself with positive people and things. Breast cancer did not ruin my life. It changed my life. It made me realize that I don’t know what the future holds. Whatever time I have left on this Earth I’m going to make it purposeful and meaningful for me. So I make an effort to take in things that make me happy, whether it be listening to music while driving in a car, or actively watching my loved ones enjoying what makes them happy :)
It's been six months since my bilateral mastectomy. I had my routine follow up and I am due back in march. Also I am scheduled to meet the plastic surgeon to plan my reconstructive surgery. I know it will take at least a couple surgeries to complete the process. I am still on tamoxifen, daily for 5 years. I thank God that he has blessed me with an open and accepting attitude that better things will come. I am truly grateful for all he has blessed me with. I fought a battle I didn't see coming and still came out victorious.!! Yes The road has been long, but my new lease on life is sweet. It's been a tremendous healing & positive for me to write my thoughts, in ways it was therapy for me. This post closes this chapter of my life.. My journey through breast cancer. I've added a video and this is to give you insight into my own journey of breast cancer and to raise awareness of this disease especially in young woman. Thank you for your prayers and encouragement through what was the darkest days of my life.
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